All the bad things come over me again

Last night i was texting msg with babe, then suddenly my mum came in... And she saw i'm texting... Then she asked who am i texting with? I sure answered that's my friend... Who knows, she asked me to gave her see the phone, i said can't, she said if is friend why can't let her see?
She was looking at my phone silently, and suddenly became very angry... I lie on her million times... Why i will lie on her? It is because she not allow me and baby in a relationship... Let's say if i tell the truth, does she accept it? Does she allow i go out with baby? No right? So the only way is lying on her... Mum and dad told me last night, they were DISAPPOINTED to me... They won't trust me anymore... And i'm worried bout baby... Sorry again, all the bad things come over again... Maybe i can't accompany you again... Suddenly feel that i'm useless... I feel like want to DIE... I can't sleep the whole night, i was thinking, thinking and thinking... Why God treat me like this? Why all the bad, unhappy things should happened on me? Then i wrote a letter to my parents last midnight... No other meaning, not my excuses... I just wanna tell them what i feel and what i want... Bii, i already told them i really love you, i can't forget you... But they no respond, maybe? I already know that they won't accept, and even forgive me anymore... But i still asked then to try to accept both of us... Am i a fool? I'm really stupid maybe... My parents said that i'm very selfish... What selfish? I just wanna stay with the one i love? Is that selfish?
Lastly, i just wanna wish my parents will accept me... If there's just 0.1%... I also won't give up...
Because i really love my dear.... God bless me please....
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WHY ALWAYS NEAR TO 27th, SOMETHING SURE WILL HAPPEN? DON'T LIKE THAT PLEASE... 27th IS OUR DAY... I REALLY WANT TO STAY HAPPY FOREVER....I WANT PEACE... I NEED HAPINESS NOW... I'M SO SO SO STRESS NOW... 27, MY LOVELY NUMBER, DON'T LET ME HATE YOU 27~~~~~